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[25 Aug 2006|06:16pm] |
There's exactly one week before I leave for college.
And I really am terrified, scared to the bone, worried I will fail.
Do you guys remember when we first all started Jr. High? I was never a student type until later on... I made decent grades, but now I'm going to college and I'm going to have to try super hard. What a bummer, I was really hoping to spend some time with Marco and to relax and party.
P.S. Marco, where have you been? What's your schedule looking like? We should compare notes, see if we have anything similar. Hopefully we'll have at least one class together. An English, maybe? Or a math class?
I've seen so much of Alex lately that I'm unsure I can exist without her. ;-) Seriously though, it's amazing to have her again. I hate sleeping alone. She keeps playing with something around her neck, tho, which is weird, because she never wears jewelry. Did she get a tattoo or something that I can't find? Remind me to ask her about it.
I've been spending some time with Heather lately, when Alex is at work. She's quite the girl, why did we never hang out before? I can't wait to see her freshly decorated room. I have some excellent taste, if I do say so myself. Too bad I'm not going to school for interior design!
But maybe I could use my business degree to start a designing business. ;-)
Anyways, I gotta run. I'd told mom I'd go and pick up dinner somewhere. Should get to that soon.
♥ Paige ♥
((OOC: Sorry I haven't been around lately. My boyfriend's leaving soon, so when I'm online I'm usually talking to him (which is why I haven't signed on to roleplay) and I don't like getting distracted from him. When I'm not online, I'm usually with him. We're trying to spend as much time together as possible before he leaves [in about week]. I've also recently started reading some things online which are time consuming. I check the journals every day... I'm just not very creative at the moment, and my mind is fairly cluttered. I'm terribly sorry.))
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[17 Aug 2006|12:24pm] |
So by now everyone is aware that Alex and I are back together, and honestly I think Ellie and Sean are tired of seeing me at their place. I just can't get enough "us" time with Lexi... I really missed her. And I would gladly have Alex over, but... She doesn't seem to want to come back here. Maybe she's afraid that I told my parents and Dylan?
And she's been weird ever since our wedding rings came in... Like she has something to say, but she's afraid to? I think she wants to know where we might be going, but I can't even... It's too soon for me to think about that right now.
Other than that I've just been getting ready for school. God help me, I'm actually scared. What is that?
I am completely out of thoughts for today. Just like a typical blonde. ;-)
♥ Paige ♥
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[11 Aug 2006|10:36am] |
Yesterday, just to spite Alex, I cleaned out my closet.
And got rid of two trash bags full of clothes.
Thank you and goodnight.
Now I get to spend money buying new clothes. ;-)
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[07 Aug 2006|09:14pm] |
So last night I spent the night at Alex's. I went over kind of late to hang out, but I was smart and packed a bag to make sure that I would be comfortable. When I told Ash, she had nothing but dirty thoughts. But for everyone's information, all we did was talk. Well... mostly... There was a little bit of affection. And I slept on the floor. With much protest from Alex. It was amazing, I'm so glad we're back together..
I don't know why everyone's giving me crap about what happened with Jimmy. He knew I was in a relationship when he kissed me. We hung out when I was on a break with Alex, and he knew I was still in love with her. He's the one who told me I was on a rebound... And y'know, Ellie, you played Sean, too. So quit taking it out on me.
Anyways... I just wanted to thank everyone for being so supportive. We both really appreciate it.
Anyways, I'm outtie 5000. ;-)
♥ Paige ♥
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| Back together! |
[06 Aug 2006|12:54pm] |
Back together! Backtogetherbacktogetherbacktogether. This is my BACKTOGETHER dance!!! 'Cause guess what? Me and Alex are back together! Yeah, this really amazing thing happened... Me and Alex got backtogether! And I love Alex, so... we're back together. It's amazing, because Palex is back together. And did you hear? Palex is back together!
I'm really happy.
And I'm also really, really sorry, Jimmy...
♥ Paige ♥
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[03 Aug 2006|10:55pm] |
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((OOC: Ok, I think most of you know what's going on with the friend that's been staying here. We both thought she would be home by now, but guess what? Her mom really did kick her out for good, so I guess she's living with me now. My mom's been cool about it actually. But yeah... Anyways, the point of this. I bought my boyfriend's laptop so now I have my own connection. But I'm still helping Amber get things settled in and so for another week or two, I'm gonna be a little unreliable at times. But yeah... as soon as Amber's more or less settled, I'll be getting a job. Or... WE'LL be getting jobs. My mom says it's part of the condition of her staying here... And I have to get one, too, because well, my stay at home mom gig isn't cutting it two months out of high school. So yeah, that's what's going on in my life. Just thought I'd let you guys know.))
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[02 Aug 2006|01:57pm] |
I had coffee with Alex the other night. We agreed to have weekly coffee meetings. It kinda makes me nervous. but... it's good for us, I think.
What is with the hothothot lately? It's crazy!
Jimmy, I'm sorry I bailed on our date... Something came up. Kind of. I'll tell you about it later. ((Really, my friend that's staying with me... She and I had a long talk about things about what's happened and what's to come. The RP slipped my mind. I'm really sorry!))
IM me if you want to do something... Especially if your name is Marco. Especially if you want to go apartment shopping!!! ;-)
♥ Paige ♥
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[28 Jul 2006|12:19pm] |
God, I'm tired. I feel like I could sleep and not wake up for a week. I just wish I had someone to curl up against.
Spent some time with Jimmy. We're going to go on a date. I feel guilty... Because I feel like I'm still with Alex. And I really hope she doesn't find out. She'd kill Jimmy, and he's a sweet kid. I dunno.. it's like Ash says. I like how he makes me feel, but I dunno if that necessairly means I'd like to be with him. I think I should tell him all of this so I don't hurt him like I've hurt Alex. Let me know if any of you want to spend time with me.
Cleaning up a little. As if I have anything left to clean up?
I'm outtie 5000.
♥ Paige ♥
((OOC: A friend of mine got kicked out and is crashing here. If you IM me, it's probably her you're talking to. She's online a lot. And she's always like, "I don't want to put up an away message, if someone IMs you, you can just have the computer" but I'm all "I can't take the computer away from you!" So yea... She's staying untiL Sunday or Monday. Sorry, I won't be around much. :-/))
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[23 Jul 2006|07:34pm] |
Last night was interesting.
Not much else to say. Except I miss Alex a lot and I pretty much saw Jimmy naked last night.
♥ Paige ♥
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| Hell Came And Visit |
[20 Jul 2006|10:40am] |
Last night I went over to see Alex. To talk. Surprise, surprise, it didn't go well. Was it always that difficult to talk to her? She got mad at me for wanting to date Jimmy. Who said I'm going to date!?!? I just said I needed to figure out why I would cheat on her. And I can't do that while in a relationship, otherwise there's just more cheating. She wants to pick up right where we left off of, but that was getting married. How can I marry someone who hurt me? Who I hurt? It doesn't make sense.
The whole situation has inspired me to take a dance class. It helps me to get out some of my extra nerves and frustrations. Plus it makes me giggle with happiness. And who ever my next relationship is with will get something out of it, too. I'm taking "The Art of Exotic Dancing"... There are a lot of blonde busty bimbos, but... whatever. I still feel HOTT when I'm doing those moves. Not to mention it's once a week away from everyone at Degrassi. Sorry guys, but a girl needs some alone time.
I guess I'm living at home this school year. The rents already bought me my new car (pictures included later!) so there's no money for dorm fees. Looks like I'm not getting away yet.
Well, at least I got my new car. (And by new, I mean new to me, because it's definitely used.)
( Click me for pictures. )
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[18 Jul 2006|09:34am] |
Things are pretty messed up right now, and I don't know what to do. I wouldn't go looking for wedding presents or anything just yet, because I don't know if I'm getting married. I take part of the blame... But God, how could she do that to me?
First things first; at the rave the other night, I got caught up in a moment and kissed a guy. That was it. Except it wasn't really just some guy. It was Jimmy Brooks. And I'm starting to think it wasn't nothing... She was really mean at first, which I deserved and had prepared for. But when she softned up, she told me she'd made mistakes as well. She had sex with Jay. She got high and had sex with Jay... Her ex-boyfriend... More than a week ago, she wasn't going to tell me! While we were engaged. I couldn't believe what she told me. It hurt me so much. How could she have done that? And she waited so long to tell me... I can't even think straight. I left last night and went for comfort, I went to Jimmy's.
He was so protective of me, swore he was going to kill Alex. It was insane! Soon I got him to calm down, and he had me calmed down and we ended up just falling asleep on his couch. After we had talked about what happen. I asked him to be honest with me and let me know how he felt about what happened. He told me it was perfect... And he just cares about me so much, it's really nice. I'm confused... I don't know what I'm going to do. I left this morning before Jimmy woke up, and I grabbed my laptop from upstairs. Alex is there sleeping still. I think I'm gonna go for a walk somewhere, maybe go to my special place where I think...
Actually, that sounds really nice. I have some things to think about. And a pro/con list to make.
♥ Paige ♥
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[17 Jul 2006|12:34am] |
Oh, but this is so not good!!
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| Wedding Stuff |
[14 Jul 2006|08:54am] |
Last night Alex came home and we had a talk. It went okay, she told me why she's been away. And then she asked me to move up the wedding, and I said yes. Now I am in ultra planning mode!! August 27, btw. How do you feel about this dress? We're going casual... I don't even know if Alex is wearing white.
We also picked out our rings. They're white gold, and it looks like two bands twisted together. These, but with our birth stones set in the band instead of diamonds. I found them around here... It'll cost about $248 from a store around here, but that's still better then most rings.
Expenses as of now:
2 Wedding rings - $496
And of course, the guest list...
# Mom and Dad
# Dylan and Marco
# Alex's Mom
# Ash plus one (I'm assuming Craig, but just in case, it's just a "plus one")
# Ellie and Sean
# Spin plus one (I'm assuming that's Heather, but again, just in case...)
We're thinking we'll just ask everyone to the City Hall to watch the ceremony, we'll have our first dance right there, and then we'll treat everyone to a nice dinner at a nice club or restaraunt that has dancing. Ok, I planned it all, but Alex really does seem fine with it.
She also asked if we could move in with Sean and Ellie instead of Marco and Dylan. I guess I don't really, because I feel bad leaving them like that. Not to mention how far away I'll be from school. But Alex has given up a lot to be with me, so I can give up a little for her. Plus if we live with Sean and Ellie, Alex said she'd take care of my share of the rent and stuff so I don't have to work. She's going to work in a bar, I guess. I'm worried about her getting hurt, but she says it'll be fine. Plus my parents said they'd buy me a used car since they're saving money on my dorm fees. Guess that means I need to get a job for the rest of summer. I'll need spending money during the year. So I said yes. Sorry Marco and Dylan, but this is an opportunity I just had to grab at! I called and you can still get into dorms. Or you guys can get a cheap apartment together, I'll help find one and everything.
Other than that, not much is going on. I'm feeling a little... nauseated. But that's because I have my period. I know it'll be fine, tho.
Well, I'm outtie. IM me!
♥ Paige ♥
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[11 Jul 2006|11:43am] |
I am so bored, I miss Ash. I didn't even know she was leaving town, how did I miss that? Sally seems to be posting still, but Ash is totally missing. I just miss her! And with her gone, and with Marco... I don't even know where the hell Marco is. How did I miss everyone going out of town?
Let me know if you feel like doing something, because I'm completely bored.
Alex went out last night and didn't bother to ask if I wanted to go along. I mean, sure I was sleeping, but she could have woken me up! Maybe I'm just not wild enough for her taste. and she's not home yet. Which is sad, because waking up alone is the worst. It's like waking up from a bad dream to find that it just gets worse.
How about that freak thunderstorm?
I'm outtie 5000. IM me, seriously.
♥ Paige ♥
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[09 Jul 2006|11:14pm] |
So today I draggedmanaged to get Alex to agree to go to the movies with me. Can you guess what we saw? The Devil Wears Prada. I know, how did Alex take me bringing her? Well, let's just say I definitely made it up to her afterwards. It only took me a couple hours of fooling around to get her to be happy with me again. Now she's spending the night elsewhere, I forget where, and I'm lonely in my bed without her.
Spin and I talked about a poker night. Who's in? I figure we should make it pot luck. Let me know if you're in! ((I figure we'll just play on yahoo together... The night of I'll just open up a private room and everyone can either leave their yahoo name here or IM it to me so that I can invite them in. I'll be using chaos2go68.)) Oh, let me know if any of you play the yahoo version of scrabble! I'm so addicted, I'll play against anyone I can.
I'm watching Groundhog Day right now. Good movie, I'd never seen it before. I just want Alex to be here cuddling with me. :'(
I'm outtie, I guess. Let me know if you want to hang out!
♥ Paige ♥
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[08 Jul 2006|10:44am] |
I guess I missed all the drama, reading over my friends page. And it seems like we've got almost all of Degrassi on here. Guess that means if I were to ever actually want to write something personal, well, then... I'd have to censor myself, wouldn't I?
So if any of you have talked to Alex or I lately you might have heard some interesting news. If you haven't, ( follow my cut... )
In other news... I'm tired. And a little dizzy.
IM me or leave a message if you want to do something. Or help out. ;-)
♥Paige♥
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[04 Jul 2006|10:02pm] |
Raise your hand if you want to go on a road trip to see Dane Cook with me and Spin. ;-) Anyone who feels like going can come!
Nevermind, spoke too soon.
♥ Paige ♥
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[04 Jul 2006|04:54pm] |
What is your perspective of me? Using a candybar doll maker make a doll of me from what you remember of my looks and post it here in the comments. Once you've posted here, ask the same in your own journal and see what your friends think you look like! Here's the link: http://elouai.com/doll-makers/new-dollmaker.php#aligntop
P.S. Everyone who does this for me will definitely get one for them from me.
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